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Feeling Nothing. Feeling Everything.

Breathe in.Breathe out.Repeat, until the pain goesAway, they say.Repeat, until the whirlwindStops blowing, andThe earth stopsCrumbling underYour feetAnd your heart stopsThrowing itselfAgainst the groundWith expectations you setBeyond what your heartWill endure.Breathe in likeIt is your only breath.Breathe out likeYou are already whole.Repeat. Even as youFeel nothing, yetFeel everythingAt the same time.

Accepting the Ordinary.

The end of 2020 was a period of intense internal assessment and growth for me. I know the repercussions of that time will continue to flow through my entire life, as the knowledge I gained provides me with a foundation to build myself upon. Through that time my ambitions around personal growth shifted significantly. IContinue reading “Accepting the Ordinary.”

A Comment on Work Experience.

I was recently asked to make a short video talking about the value of Work Experience for my high school. It’s an exciting topic for me because Work Experience was a pivotal moment in my life. Due to the industry connection between my first employer and my high school’s Trade Training Center, I was able toContinue reading “A Comment on Work Experience.”

Do Not Suck It Up.

I learnt the hard way that ‘sucking it up’ doesn’t work. Not long term. Whether it is a physical or mental ailment, eventually all that hard work pushing through the pain will return. When it comes back, it won’t just knock on your front door, it will burst open the door and you won’t haveContinue reading “Do Not Suck It Up.”

Orca.

Waters lapped,Currents swirled,Beneath my feet a worldBlossomed ripeLiked a fruit for plucking.Scattered light twirledIn an iridescent showerOver the surfaceOf my body, a flowerFloating on the ocean,Drifting in the bloom.I was alone yetI was whole in the wombOf the water.I tread lightly as the spiritRose highly,Black and white andRight and mighty.The orca of my dreams,Gliding withinContinue reading “Orca.”

My Transition from Automotive to Mining

This year I made the transition from the automotive industry to mining. Translation: I have gone from working on 4.5-tonne trucks to maintaining earthmoving equipment the size of houses! In case you need a visual representation of the scale of the earthmoving equipment: I left behind my work friends, product knowledge, network, and reputation toContinue reading “My Transition from Automotive to Mining”

The Exit – Short Story

She had it sealed in an envelope in her bag. It had been finalized and printed weeks ago, but the time to deliver it hadn’t yet arrived. So, it stayed there, resting like a caterpillar that had crawled into its cocoon expecting to die but came out as a butterfly. No. It came out asContinue reading “The Exit – Short Story”

Why Perfectionism is Killing your Characters

In life I strive to be a better version of myself. ‘Better’ can look like: Happier Mentally stronger Physically leaner Great decision making Less mistakes Time efficiency Indestructible patience Financial security Prettier house Prettier Instagram feed The list goes on. In the above list I can identify flaws in my way of viewing ‘better’ andContinue reading “Why Perfectionism is Killing your Characters”

How to Overcome Scene-Paralysis

Are you stuck on how to begin writing the scene you have lingering somewhere in your mind? Have you got a ‘notion’ of what you need to write but no idea where to begin? Congratulations! You are only one step away from being a writer! All that is left is to write. But, how? ThereContinue reading “How to Overcome Scene-Paralysis”

Why you need a Writers Group

For many years, writing was a solitary process. It was a solitary passion. Whether I was sharing content on social media, my website, or Wattpad, I felt a lack of community. My readers were my family (after I annoyed them enough to read my content) and occasionally my co-workers. Despite the number of writers IContinue reading “Why you need a Writers Group”